Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Late Nights
Sometimes I just sit and think, and think is the optimal term because it's not really a specific train of thought but more of a wreck of past, present and future experiences all smashing together. I can lay in my bed night after night just waiting on something to break, because fixing something that's broken would be easy in comparison to keeping the 5 million things I'm juggling up in the air constantly. I have hopes and dreams that I can't even properly define. I feel like I'll know it when I get there. The crazy part about my life is I spend all this time sitting and thinking, trying to piece together a map of how to achieve my aspirations and it's not possible. Infact it's insanity, I do it night after night expecting a new result to an unsolvable puzzle. I've figured out that the thinking hasn't given me a map or a plan, thinking has taught me that no matter how much I feel like I know, absolutely NOTHING can be planned out to perfection. That no matter how many nights I lay and think about what's next I won't know until I actually get there. There's a certain beauty in the unknown, and it's always right around the corner. No maps needed.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Fresh Start
So this blog is really an update, it's been a year since I started Weighing Our World, a very long year at that. I admit to feeling as though 2012 went by quickly but reading back over these blogs I realize just how long ago January really was.
2012 was full of change for me, new friends, new jobs, new opportunities. This blog, it means something to me. It is where all my thoughts are, from the past year, and that, that is priceless. I originally started this blog to document the changes, document the way I felt and the way I feel. And over the past year it has done that and so much more for me. This blog was the open book I needed to be able to feel things that I otherwise could not express. And if nothing else 2012 has taught me that I have depth, I have sides to me I couldnt see before I reflected on them in this way. Not to sound corny but this outlet has changed my life, it has given me meaning when nothing else felt like it could. And for that I will forever be grateful for the ability to write for those of you who have read.
In 2013 I want to continue this but Im not going to force anything. For any of you who regularly read you know its been since early November that I last posted a blog. I wanted to , needed to blog. But I couldnt do it, I couldnt string words together in the way I wanted, so I didnt force it. So it could be awhile, Im not going to force anything, because when I look back next January I want to remember this, remember who I was and who I aspire to become. So with new year comes new focus, and I hope you will all enjoy the blogs to come in 2013. Thank you for an amazing 2012 and heres to an even better year in 2013. Thanks for reading.
2012 was full of change for me, new friends, new jobs, new opportunities. This blog, it means something to me. It is where all my thoughts are, from the past year, and that, that is priceless. I originally started this blog to document the changes, document the way I felt and the way I feel. And over the past year it has done that and so much more for me. This blog was the open book I needed to be able to feel things that I otherwise could not express. And if nothing else 2012 has taught me that I have depth, I have sides to me I couldnt see before I reflected on them in this way. Not to sound corny but this outlet has changed my life, it has given me meaning when nothing else felt like it could. And for that I will forever be grateful for the ability to write for those of you who have read.
In 2013 I want to continue this but Im not going to force anything. For any of you who regularly read you know its been since early November that I last posted a blog. I wanted to , needed to blog. But I couldnt do it, I couldnt string words together in the way I wanted, so I didnt force it. So it could be awhile, Im not going to force anything, because when I look back next January I want to remember this, remember who I was and who I aspire to become. So with new year comes new focus, and I hope you will all enjoy the blogs to come in 2013. Thank you for an amazing 2012 and heres to an even better year in 2013. Thanks for reading.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Looking Through A Key Hole
WARNING: This blog is political and opinionated.
Sometimes I just get frustrated. Frustrated with co-workers , with friends, with my community but more than that, with people who dont see the bigger picture.
Change is always relevant always evident, and its just part of life. Change isnt the end of the world but rather the way this world works. Im disappointed specifically in the reaction seen by many after the re-election of President Obama.
So before we start down this path, I have my views and you have yours and neither of us are right. Just putting that out there before I state my views and take controversy over them. I believe that America is a place where everyones views, whether it be religious, moral, personal or other wise, we live in a place that respects everyones view point. So just from that I believe President Obama was a better option. Oppression is completely against what America is and always has been and thats what I believe Mr. Romney was headed towards.
I think that today we are in a better place than we were before. I think we can only grow and do what we limit ourselves to. So the fault I find isnt in the government but the lack of confidence and motivation by americans. Do you want to know why things arent ok in the country? Well it cant all be because of one man right? Everyone needs to look in the mirror because its only us that can change our course in life.
To sum this all up, I think this big Anti Obama attitude is pathetic. We need to get it together (for or against Obama) and put on our big boy/girl pants and do what we need to do to survive this life. This isnt the end but only the beginning. And I dont know about you but Ive never been more excited for the future.
Thanks for taking time to read this rant. *Personal Opinion Only*
Sometimes I just get frustrated. Frustrated with co-workers , with friends, with my community but more than that, with people who dont see the bigger picture.
Change is always relevant always evident, and its just part of life. Change isnt the end of the world but rather the way this world works. Im disappointed specifically in the reaction seen by many after the re-election of President Obama.
So before we start down this path, I have my views and you have yours and neither of us are right. Just putting that out there before I state my views and take controversy over them. I believe that America is a place where everyones views, whether it be religious, moral, personal or other wise, we live in a place that respects everyones view point. So just from that I believe President Obama was a better option. Oppression is completely against what America is and always has been and thats what I believe Mr. Romney was headed towards.
I think that today we are in a better place than we were before. I think we can only grow and do what we limit ourselves to. So the fault I find isnt in the government but the lack of confidence and motivation by americans. Do you want to know why things arent ok in the country? Well it cant all be because of one man right? Everyone needs to look in the mirror because its only us that can change our course in life.
To sum this all up, I think this big Anti Obama attitude is pathetic. We need to get it together (for or against Obama) and put on our big boy/girl pants and do what we need to do to survive this life. This isnt the end but only the beginning. And I dont know about you but Ive never been more excited for the future.
Thanks for taking time to read this rant. *Personal Opinion Only*
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
The Definition of Strength
Today is September 11th 2012, 11 years after the tragic events brought on through terrorist attacks took place this day.And today I wanted to make it a point to take a second and write this out.
Its days like this that make me proud to call myself an american. And I know that may seem odd, but the connotation associated with "americans" is not a great one. Today, however, I can truly say I live in the best nation on earth. When youre in debt and youre still helping countless other countries to have better lives and freedoms that you enjoy and believe they should too thats when you know youre doing something right.And its events like 9-11 when the world stood still that not only reassures my pride in american but also my views on americas strength. Time and time again we are tested ,and time and time again we proceed through all the crap, through all the wars, through all the terrorism and the hate. Time and time again , we overcome, and we love, and we protect. Because this is america, not only home of the free but also the brave, the courageous, We are the ones who will stand up for the little guy when no one else will, and why? Because thats what we do. Because thats who we are.
11 years ago as a five year old little boy I could not truly even begin to grasp the events taking place that day or the crazy repercussions that would ensue soon after. Now sitting here at 16 years of age and looking back I see the heart ache, I see the pain, and I see the brokenness, but even more than that I see pride. Every american, male or female, white or black, gay or straight, has been affected by this day. Because not only did the tragedy change lives, but it also changed a country. Changed in a way that will never be fully understood or grasped by any one person because it wasnt the lives that were lost, or the terrorism that was acted out, but it was in the reaction where we showed our true strength, in the support and the growth, in the rebuilding and recovery. America has and will always be a strong nation, the only change would be how we define our strengths.
Id also like to take a moment to remember not only the victims of 9-11 but also all those serving as a police officer, fire fighter, or overseas and many many more. You are the countries backbone and you should never be taken for granted. Thanks for reading,
-Colton Lewis
Its days like this that make me proud to call myself an american. And I know that may seem odd, but the connotation associated with "americans" is not a great one. Today, however, I can truly say I live in the best nation on earth. When youre in debt and youre still helping countless other countries to have better lives and freedoms that you enjoy and believe they should too thats when you know youre doing something right.And its events like 9-11 when the world stood still that not only reassures my pride in american but also my views on americas strength. Time and time again we are tested ,and time and time again we proceed through all the crap, through all the wars, through all the terrorism and the hate. Time and time again , we overcome, and we love, and we protect. Because this is america, not only home of the free but also the brave, the courageous, We are the ones who will stand up for the little guy when no one else will, and why? Because thats what we do. Because thats who we are.
11 years ago as a five year old little boy I could not truly even begin to grasp the events taking place that day or the crazy repercussions that would ensue soon after. Now sitting here at 16 years of age and looking back I see the heart ache, I see the pain, and I see the brokenness, but even more than that I see pride. Every american, male or female, white or black, gay or straight, has been affected by this day. Because not only did the tragedy change lives, but it also changed a country. Changed in a way that will never be fully understood or grasped by any one person because it wasnt the lives that were lost, or the terrorism that was acted out, but it was in the reaction where we showed our true strength, in the support and the growth, in the rebuilding and recovery. America has and will always be a strong nation, the only change would be how we define our strengths.
Id also like to take a moment to remember not only the victims of 9-11 but also all those serving as a police officer, fire fighter, or overseas and many many more. You are the countries backbone and you should never be taken for granted. Thanks for reading,
-Colton Lewis
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Complex Simplicity
"Dont play with knives, theyll cut you" This simple phrase I heard from a mother to her toddler as I cleared off the table behind them. The simplicity of the statement made it all the more apparent to me. Most people wouldnt even have thought twice about what she said, most people would just think that that is just a normal statement, but me, I see a the complexity within it.
Knives can be equated to nearly anything in your life. Dont play with lighters, or guns, or fires theyll all hurt you. Or even more dont play with hearts, itll hurt you. In so many ways this phrase is multi leveled and complex. Everything in your life is set around a basic principal that things in life will hurt you, but its the ways in which we deal with them that shapes us as people. We all need people in our lives, whether new or old, that tell us "Hey you need to watch out for that, youre gunna get hurt". Without them we would all be no where, we would all be broken human beings, even more so than we already are.
So I guess the reason this really caught me by surprise was that something as simple as that is still an issue, that everyone learns things at certain paces, and everyone lives their lives completely different. I could only hope to live my life in a way that I can influence others for the better, that someday I will be able to look at a child of my own and tell them "Hey, dont play with knives, they'll hurt you."
Thanks for reading
Knives can be equated to nearly anything in your life. Dont play with lighters, or guns, or fires theyll all hurt you. Or even more dont play with hearts, itll hurt you. In so many ways this phrase is multi leveled and complex. Everything in your life is set around a basic principal that things in life will hurt you, but its the ways in which we deal with them that shapes us as people. We all need people in our lives, whether new or old, that tell us "Hey you need to watch out for that, youre gunna get hurt". Without them we would all be no where, we would all be broken human beings, even more so than we already are.
So I guess the reason this really caught me by surprise was that something as simple as that is still an issue, that everyone learns things at certain paces, and everyone lives their lives completely different. I could only hope to live my life in a way that I can influence others for the better, that someday I will be able to look at a child of my own and tell them "Hey, dont play with knives, they'll hurt you."
Thanks for reading
Saturday, August 11, 2012
All for Not?
So this past week Ive been in Wilmington North Carolina with my best friend and her family. Tonight's the last night here and I'm really starting to wanna just write things out. If you dont have a blog you wont understand, but sometimes I just sit here and write minor thoughts over and over, minor emotions of anger or of awe, but most all end when I hit delete and forget all about it. Well tonight im not doing that Im writing out everything Im feeling but this time publishing it so I can find it later and know that this is where I was at on August 12th 2012.
This whole week I've spent building relationships with people and families that Ive come to realize I will never, in my life, see ever again. That alone leaves me completely dumbfounded because I cant completely tell if it was a waste of time or not, if coming here and building the beggining of relationships with many people was all for nothing due to an almost certain divergence of our lives. These people were great and I had a lot of fun but never in my life have I felt so confused because Ive came to the conclusion that no matter how great they are or how much fun we had it will end, that is has ended. So this makes me think about life as a whole, if I was 100% sure that someone I confide in now would eventually become just another human on this earth, that they would no longer have a special spot in my life, than would it really be worth it to get to know them more, or be around them more, when you know it will all come to an end at some point in the near future. Or is it more important to live through these experiences and gain from them enough so that when someone comes into your life, even for the shortest amount of time, you can impact there life much like anyone has ever impacted me. It could be a day,week , or a month, or longer, but every person you come into contact with shapes your outlook and opinions on anything and everything whether you notice it or not.
On to the next tangent. Nikki's leaving for college in 3 days. So scary to know that my bestfriend will be so far away. After spending this week with her in North Carolina I cant even begin to imagine not seeing her atleast weekly.. Shes been a main component of my everyday life for my past two years on this earth. She has impacted my life much like her family has this week but in a much more substantial and long term way. She walked into my life 2 years ago and has staye there ever since. Sometimes you can see the end ahead but the scary part about this is I dont know if I can se the end, whether there isnt one or Im too stubborn to look. All I know for sure is Ill need to really sit back and look at what I can do without her for the first time in a long time.
and on I type. I feel so much better just having put everything out like that, this isnt a blog like any of my others. I usually try to show my reasoning for an opinion I have on something but this.. this is just my thoughts, written out, plane as day, just so that I can look back on this and know exactly how I felt on August 12th 2012. This is me, Thanks for reading.
This whole week I've spent building relationships with people and families that Ive come to realize I will never, in my life, see ever again. That alone leaves me completely dumbfounded because I cant completely tell if it was a waste of time or not, if coming here and building the beggining of relationships with many people was all for nothing due to an almost certain divergence of our lives. These people were great and I had a lot of fun but never in my life have I felt so confused because Ive came to the conclusion that no matter how great they are or how much fun we had it will end, that is has ended. So this makes me think about life as a whole, if I was 100% sure that someone I confide in now would eventually become just another human on this earth, that they would no longer have a special spot in my life, than would it really be worth it to get to know them more, or be around them more, when you know it will all come to an end at some point in the near future. Or is it more important to live through these experiences and gain from them enough so that when someone comes into your life, even for the shortest amount of time, you can impact there life much like anyone has ever impacted me. It could be a day,week , or a month, or longer, but every person you come into contact with shapes your outlook and opinions on anything and everything whether you notice it or not.
On to the next tangent. Nikki's leaving for college in 3 days. So scary to know that my bestfriend will be so far away. After spending this week with her in North Carolina I cant even begin to imagine not seeing her atleast weekly.. Shes been a main component of my everyday life for my past two years on this earth. She has impacted my life much like her family has this week but in a much more substantial and long term way. She walked into my life 2 years ago and has staye there ever since. Sometimes you can see the end ahead but the scary part about this is I dont know if I can se the end, whether there isnt one or Im too stubborn to look. All I know for sure is Ill need to really sit back and look at what I can do without her for the first time in a long time.
and on I type. I feel so much better just having put everything out like that, this isnt a blog like any of my others. I usually try to show my reasoning for an opinion I have on something but this.. this is just my thoughts, written out, plane as day, just so that I can look back on this and know exactly how I felt on August 12th 2012. This is me, Thanks for reading.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Happy Chick-fil-A Day
Here we go again, this blog may not be in line with everyones thoughts or beliefs but I wanted to share my thoughts, so here it is.
August 1st , 2012. Chick-fil-A Day, a day dedicated to the company for there services. This has turned into something much more than gratitude. Chick-fil-A Day is now a political and religious statement. The reason for this is because recently Chick-fil-A came out into the open saying they do not support same sex marriage, which really should have come as no huge surprise because they are strongly religious based company.
I guess my issue here is this, food is food. Buying a chicken sandwich should not hold the power to determine your beliefs on religious or political issues. And my even bigger issue with this is how people are acting as if buying Chick-fil-A will make a difference. In the long run the only thing accomplished is a political agenda. It's crazy to say that we as Christians should support Chic-fil-A and buy there product because it lines up with our beliefs because truly lots of companies that are a part of our everyday lives do just the opposite. Have you recently sent a package through UPS, or grabbed a cup of Starbucks coffee? Have you gone out to eat at Olive Garden, or ate at Mcdonalds? or how about drinking Pepsi products, and using Google? All of those companies and more are in support of same sex marriages, however we dont see a revolution there? If anyone wants to make a real statement wouldnt you have to stop use of all same sex marriage supporting companies, but does that really make a statement at all? wouldnt a better way to make a statement in the world be showing love and compassion for all of those, who dont necessarily line up with our beliefs, but showing sympathy in knowing that they are entitled to their beliefs as well.
Religious and moral values aside, I personally am not against the legalization of same sex marriages. I believe that it is a much deeper moral dilemma than buying a chicken sandwich from Chick-fil-A or Mcdonalds. People in this country are childish and selfish, but in the same rights that they have to speak their beliefs, I have that right to speak mine. That doesnt mean that Im right and theyre wrong ,it just means we are all entitled to our own opinions. Some however may be better left unsaid. Thanks for reading.
-Colton Lewis
http://www.facebook.com/HowMuchDoesTheWorldWeighBlog
August 1st , 2012. Chick-fil-A Day, a day dedicated to the company for there services. This has turned into something much more than gratitude. Chick-fil-A Day is now a political and religious statement. The reason for this is because recently Chick-fil-A came out into the open saying they do not support same sex marriage, which really should have come as no huge surprise because they are strongly religious based company.
I guess my issue here is this, food is food. Buying a chicken sandwich should not hold the power to determine your beliefs on religious or political issues. And my even bigger issue with this is how people are acting as if buying Chick-fil-A will make a difference. In the long run the only thing accomplished is a political agenda. It's crazy to say that we as Christians should support Chic-fil-A and buy there product because it lines up with our beliefs because truly lots of companies that are a part of our everyday lives do just the opposite. Have you recently sent a package through UPS, or grabbed a cup of Starbucks coffee? Have you gone out to eat at Olive Garden, or ate at Mcdonalds? or how about drinking Pepsi products, and using Google? All of those companies and more are in support of same sex marriages, however we dont see a revolution there? If anyone wants to make a real statement wouldnt you have to stop use of all same sex marriage supporting companies, but does that really make a statement at all? wouldnt a better way to make a statement in the world be showing love and compassion for all of those, who dont necessarily line up with our beliefs, but showing sympathy in knowing that they are entitled to their beliefs as well.
Religious and moral values aside, I personally am not against the legalization of same sex marriages. I believe that it is a much deeper moral dilemma than buying a chicken sandwich from Chick-fil-A or Mcdonalds. People in this country are childish and selfish, but in the same rights that they have to speak their beliefs, I have that right to speak mine. That doesnt mean that Im right and theyre wrong ,it just means we are all entitled to our own opinions. Some however may be better left unsaid. Thanks for reading.
-Colton Lewis
http://www.facebook.com/HowMuchDoesTheWorldWeighBlog
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